i hope you all read my new story, 1947.

i got out of the hospital nearly four days ago. it was the psych ward again my whole life turned upside-down. nana and poppie moved, mom flipped and threatened to throw out all my things, and i eventually moved up here again to nh. and now i'm homeless. literally.

so the shelter is nice. it's kind of a repeat of the hospital in a way. i've a roommate, but there is a full kitchen, fridge(s), pantry closets, a fully stocked big pantry for poor people like me, a library, internet access, movie nights on friday and saturday, linens, towels, three showers, men and women seperate and the like. it's an almost brand new facility, built in 06-ish i think. it smells like flowers, orange blossoms in here.

i'm safe, i'm okay, and things will work out i hope.

i plan on transferring my fafsa over to plymouth state u today or tomorrow. i really want to go. i did transfer a few minutes ago and am putting in an application into the university now. multitasking, haha. i am planning on meterology or programming or desktop publishing. i can get housing on campus hopefully. I applied for a BS in Computer Science. I need to write an essay On a personal accomplishment. I have no brain power at the moment. Jacqui, help. Here is a list of some of the things i can do with a BS (Bachelor of Science) in computer science. [link] i hope i get in.

my diagnosis is 296.34. get out the big dsrm and look it up, or be lazy and do what i did. [link] recently spiders attacked me, and i had panic attacks from the whole shebang. they weren't real but they were on me. crawling in my mouth and up my nose. i kinda went around screaming "get the spiders off me," and then someone gave me a shot and i was out for hours. now i see and feel sometimes the spiders. It's Major Depressive Disorder, Recurrent Episode, Severe, With psychotic episodes apparently. so it's official i'm a psycho.

i love you everyone.